Betrayal

I was once betrayed by a family member
It's been years, but I still remember

It was difficult to sleep
When I could hear her weep

It was not meant for me
Yet I was still teary

My life was just a blur
Because of the stranger

I wanted them to leave
On that very eve

My future was discussed
I volunteered to adjust

I was ready for the change
And to rearrange

But the change did not come
Which left me more numb

I wish I could forget
And just press 'reset'

I know I should forgive
But can't find the right motive

I wonder...
Will I ever?